Goonies never say die

I guess its been a while since i really posted in here. I really don't do too much on LJ anymore except for off_wut. anyway things are getting a little better, I went out a few times with some school ppl and seem to be getting out more, socially. except for now I have so many papers due, i just need to concentrate on those. I can't wait til monday though because the majority of the work will be done then I have thanksgiving on Thurs! This weekend is seriously gonna be all work, and then I have the workshop at school on sunday to learn how to use the Leif digital back ( basically, a high end digital camera attachment for Med format film cameras. it costs 25,000 dollars!) Im really excited for Thanksgiving this year, Im going to the Parade in NYC before I go home and taking the train right from there (since it ends by penn station), Im going to see my Grandpa who just got out of the hospital. Also Alan, Luis, Eddie and Ansel will all be home which is pretty exciting too!. annnnd I am going to see BRAND NEW AND GLASSJAW on Saturday. I am super excited for that seeing I bought the tickets in July, I cant believe how fast those months went by!
so all in all lifes alrighhht. Now to stop procrastinating and do my paper!

Sometimes i feel like such an idiot here. I get good grades and do everything right, but this year i just DO NOT have a social life, I dont even really have the friends I did last year, like we all lived in the same dorm and even if "nothing" was going on we would make something happen and just all of us being friends made things happen. Idk, I dont get invited out ANYWHERE, my roommate always has places to go and people to hang out with, I hang out with one person here, i would be lucky to even be invited to a party. I have not done anything all year unless people from home came here. I kind of just stopped caring, thats why I dont call people anymore I dont have time and no one bothers to call me either. Its not really fair. I want to make more friends here but everyone is so shut into their own social circles, which kinda sucks. i dont meet boys either, how do i ever expect to have any sort of relationship if i cant even meet people! people in general, i mean sure i meet people but it never really gets to the point of actually hanging out with them. I have one real friend here and that is all. sometimes i just cant help but sit around and feel sorry for myself.
+end rant

i am 21!!
so weird!
I have had a great start to my birthday and it is only 10am, Me and Casey went to the Bayside/Avalanche show last night did ~birthday shots afterword and we are going to see whip it! today. Tonight is dinner with my parentals and tommorrow night is the drag show with alllll my bffs!

nothing makes me happier than the people i love.

on a different note school is going insanely well, i love my job and my roommate and classes and professors and all that good stuff.

Ill update more on sunday!

So I don't ask for a lot especially material wise but my 21st is coming up so here is my small b-day wishlist.


Chloe Sunglasses


TATTOO MONEY!!



bus tickets to Buffalo.

I always like to ~reinvent myself every school year, last year i got a whole slew of piercings and changed my style a lot.
I want my half sleeve tattoo(s) sooo bad, I almost can't wait until summer to start, maybe I can get the first piece done by christmas.
I want to do something to my hair again but idk what. lol, I kinda miss my green hair from last year

i might just re dye a small chunk underneath my hair green again I have a ton of the dye still.
but now I must shower, watch gossip girl and then sleep because I have work at 9am and then Crit.

I have not updated in a very long time! I am almost settled in my new apartment and I started my first week of school SO thrilling. :)
today I am on duty so I don't have much to do, this weekend got crazy though, Friday Meg and Emy came in and we got Dallas BBQ and drank giant margaritas yummy, then we ended up at a bar with Matty for a little bit and went out ALL day saturday, we got rice pudding for breakfast, got our YSL manifesto :D and then took a water ferry to Ikea in brooklyn, Ikea was good but I didn't really get everything I needed, I got a wall clock for my kitchen, a set of 3 wooden spoons (they were only .50!!!) and the cute colored ziploc bags they have. But today I find out my mom went to target and bought me a plushy disc chair YAY!! I wanted a chair for my apt so bad but could not find one. I got my books for literature today and will probably end up reading some Tolstoy in Gramercy Park because it is BEAUTIFUL out todaY :D yay!
to make this more interesting here are some pictures which are from last december part of my nostalgia series. I need to get my new photos up on my computer.



eh idk.

Im back in the n y c. Nothing really thrilling has happened yet, i live in a huge ass building with 5 people living in it, so pretty lonely right now. 4 OLs move in tomorrow including my roommate. Hopefully within the next week things should begin to pick up. RA training has been interesting... to say the least. I have made many new friends and I like being out of my "element". Now i have the weekend off and I do not really know what to do since none of my friends are here (yet). I was going to go out tonight maybe see what Krystal and Nicole are doing but all and all I am way too tired (and have my period yeah yeah tmi w/e) I went to the store and got dinner now I am making it on my GAS stove :D and probably will watch a movie and take a nice long shower. I am forcing myself out tommorrow night because by then I am sure I will probably be relaxed. Until then being a bum. a better update to come

i dont like it but this happened all in the same day and made me smile

my dad wanted a $5 scratch off from the machine so he put in a $20 but it would not give him change, he was pretty mad but he ended up winning $19!

Olga got 21 $1 scratch offs for her birthday and ended up winning $45!

but knowing my luck this would have never happened to me.

ive been trying to re-do my wardrobe... my newest additions


i needed a basic wide elastic belt

i love this cute chloe makeup pouch how could i resist for $30

so cute and on sale :)
i bought a few ts and tanks at urban on sale as well and some jeweled jellie sandals so cute!

now all i need are a good pair of tall leather boots any suggestions??

long teim no update?
yeah i know. I just got back from North Carolina awesome trip. but now i just realized how bored I am in New York, I really can't wait for school to start

i bought my plane ticket i am going to North Carolina from july 5- july 10 :D

i want to improve my photography
buy a cheap video camera and create videos that inspire me
cheap and crafty ways to improve my wardrobe

moving home for the summer mostly sux. bleh. I got in a fight with charlie the other night whilst driving and got a $180 driving while on a cell phone ticket FML seriously. but we made up and what ever and he said he would pay half the ticket, i feel bad because he makes a lot less than i do.
I miss NYC so much! I went there twice this week just to hang out a bit and just relax the frickin train gets kinda expensive though, basically 20 dollars round trip so thats 40 bux just to get there and back. I went to the craft fair in bklyn which was really cute, and I finally took Meg to Lamarca she loved it! I move into my new apt in almost exactly two months!
I also bought tickets to the blink 182 show in Aug. I could not resist i love pop punk way too much. Annnd Brand New in williamsburg in July <3
umm everything else is the same and what not and im kinda justt chilling i guess for now just getting through these next few months until i move

i havent updated in a while because life is boring. all i do is work but they pay has been nice, i gotta get to nyc on my next day off so i can pick up these:




its gonna be nice having my own small set of good equipment, right now a good lens and flash is all i need. i am giving Meg my D40 and i am also buying us Blink-182 tickets. the rest of the summer is work, work work, road trip in July to NC then back to school 2nd week of Aug.

did some serious cleaning/shopping since i moved home, gave away 3 bags of things to goodwill and bought a new skirt, pair of jeans, flats and a bathing suit. my room is still kinda messy because i am still moving all my stuff in and cleaning everything out, i have thrown out a huge bag of garbage already from my room. I have just been hanging out with my friends since i have been back nothing serious watching movies til 3am with charlie, we usually ended up passing out halfway through ,last night me Olga, Charlie, Meg and Big Black went to barefoot, it was fun they had karaoke and we made (lol) Olga hit on creepy guys who would buy us drinks haha. this morning Olga dragged me outta bed and we went to Moes for lunch and basked in the sun a little by the beach. everything here is so prettyyy i love it, i do miss parts of NYC too but i always can go back whenever i want. I start work on Sunday I am kind of nervous because i am working 8 hrs 7 days a week but hey the pays gonna be great soo w/e.
my hairs getting longggg

Last night I came to LI for my interview this morning Me, Meg, Olga, Big Black and Charlie had a wine night it was nice, it was not so nice waking up early this morning but my interview went super, the lady who interviewed me, her mom was my Pre-K teacher who LOVES me and my mom. So it went really well and I find out next week if I get the job. For some retarded reason my train got canceled so my Dad had to drive me to the train thats further away and when i got back to NYC I had to take a cab to work to prevent getting there super late. Im bored at work right now but I just went to get a vitamin water and I found out the little food market carries the small sizes of Ben and Jerrys!!! I have been craving half baked for like 3 days now,and could not find it anywhereee they even have the frozen yogurt version which wont is way better for my stomach then the reg ice cream. Tonight is *supposedly* a big party for Alex's Birthday but the location has been changed like 4 times so nobody really knows whats going on. I hope it comes together. Tomorrow I have work in the morning and then Me and Casey are going to Andrew W.K.'s club Santos party house for the Blacklisted/Soul Control Show! Should be a blast we haven't gone to any shows since Bane which was in January or something. Sunday I have a large format printer checked out and I will probably be working most of Sunday/Monday. I need to work on packing my shit for moving home I have a loott of work to do. I also stole a poster tube that has been sitting behind my desk at the library for weeks, no one has claimed it and I need somewhere to put my pulp fiction poster so that it doesn't get wrinkled up :) yay!

I guess updates shall happen tomorrow maybe after the show :-P
( stupid shit about moi if anyone caresss )

job interview on LI friday!!


rain rain go away

its been warm here lately, it makes me really happy and not wanting to do work. Me and Casey adventured to Brooklyn last night we went to Alisa's loft which was pretty cute and had sum good timezz, anyway we go to leave around 1 am and sit down in the train station for like 45 minutes waiting for the L train (basically the only transportation back to manhattan). The train is not coming. at. all. so some MTA dude comes up to us and tells us that someone DIED on the tracks or something ridiculous along those lines WTF?(eta: ok apparently someone really did die http://www.nypost.com/seven/04182009/news/regionalnews/death_on_the_tracks_165060.htm) so we find this sketchy ass cab (theres no yellows in bklyn) and get in hes charging us $30 to go to 14th st w/e. so Casey needed to stop at an ATM and this dude starts hitting on me in spanish asking me HOW MANY boyfriends i currently have, I told him one, and NO i was not willing to cheat on him :-/
sketchy. anyway i was never happier to see 14th st in my life. anyway today was beautiful, i walked about 30 blocks just because i could and spent the rest of the night working.
highlights of today:
-red mango ENOUGH SAIIID
-Finished my proofs for critique
yeah thats about it
i dont know its 1 am and i am way too tired to write shit im gonna edit this up tomorrow
gnight

this is perfection. just me and the open wind and water, the trees sway behind me and lead to a path. this town is a bubble just all of us and the water, everything for the taking where nothing matters, we dont need jobs or schools or lives just the water the trees the wind and us.


this goes with an image i had to make using the word "Utopia" img will be added soon

having monday off is superb. I slept in til 11:30 and at first did not want to go anywhere because it was poring rain. So I cleaned my room for about and hr. and then I remembered I got my tax refund back :) :P so I decided to go downtown to check out the new Topshop store in soho. there has been so much buzz about it and from the site i noticed they have really cute clothes. This store was beyond amazing 3 floors and amazing clothes i tried on tons of dresses, I ended up getting this gorgeous royal blue dress and a 10 percent off student discount!
I also went to pearl paint and bought sealant for my acrylic paints. After soho i took the train to Union Square and sat down and read through two Cindy Sherman books for the paper that i need to write for tommorrow, Her work is so awesome I feel like I will have no trouble writing the paper. (i hope) Tomorrow i have theory then history and hopefully ma boi said he would come up so we can FINALLY see watchmen, yesterday it was still playing so I hope its not gone yet